Blame Game

Is love self-reflective? 

Forbidden unless understood? 

Forgiven but never forgotten? 

If I sit and analyse the situation, will I start to blame myself? 

For every door that didn't open 

For every holiday that you missed 

For the baby we wanted but never conceived 

For the love that wasn't enough or for the apologies never spoken 

If I said I love you today and not tomorrow 

Is it just the desire to want to be loved? 

The need to want to be held 

The security to have someone to come home to 

Or is love something more 

Did I reap my own KARMA? 

Because I don’t want to stay in this any longer? 

Is this a test? To prepare me for the best… 

Will I one day look back and laugh  Cause all this shit is in the past 

What if I didn't nag you at all? 

Stop going to the mall… didn't bother you when you didn't call 

Would I be viewed as passive? 

Would you then believe this relationship would have something lacking? 

What if I pretended to like that little thing you do? 

Always called you baby, honey and boo? 

Would you like me better that way? 

Well I will take the blame 

I'm done playing this game.

@Nozee_