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I've been here at this place before, but never like this 
I'm scared of what is to come, what could be 
It takes time to trust, time to let go and time to love 
We've begun a journey together 
Although I'm not sure where we are heading 
As long as we are in this together I'm down for the ride 
Loves past has broken us both but we can't let that stop us 
I'm not your past nor are you mine 
We are the present of one another 
Only God knows what our future holds 
One step at a time, one foot after the other 
New experiences, ups and downs, taking the good with the bad 
I don't want you to promise me forever because forever is far to long 
Baby all I want is for you to promise me this moment Because in this moment I am yours and you are mines 

Fear

My deepest fear is not being trapped in a cage with hungry anacondas, or being at the centre of a tropical storm, nor is it standing at the shores of the Indian Ocean and seeing a tsunami coming my way and not knowing what to do.

My biggest fear is loving and losing you. I fear the feelings that will come when you are all I live for, when every breath I take is dedicated to you, when every prayer I make is me thanking the Lord for taking the time to create you in His image, cause darling you are a mirror image of Him to me.

My deepest fear is that of the night our souls dance to the rhythm of the whispering winds as they merge and become one in two. The involuntary  giggles as you play the song "Where I Wanna be" and you sing out of key, "I'm where I wanna be, I'm where I should be, in your arms, in your heart....." I fear the worry I will have when I wake up, and you are not there, but smile when I read the note you left on the pillow for me.

My deepest fear is the day I hear Beyonce's Resentment in a room full of people. I fear I won't be able to hold the tears as the memories of the times shared flood and drown me. I fear somebody will notice when I fake a smile and quickly leave the room to go shed a tear in private.

My biggest fear is the day you look at me, and tell me that you and her are working things out, or that you have found somebody new, or that you never loved me, not in that way.

I'm a prisoner of fear, I am not letting go, fear is all have, fear is all I know. I may lose you cause of fear, I may never get to know how it really feels to be really loved by you. Call me a coward, call me stupid, but my deepest fear is not being a life sentence serving prisoner.

With Faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains.

By A Close Friend, Pearl Nemo Hlophe
Twitter : @Mak_Nemz

'YOU'LL KNOW MY WORTH'

LZ; I'm sorry for the way I let go. Of everything I wanted when you came along. I am never beaten, broken or defeated. I know next to you is not where I belong" ....

NC; I'm kneeling on the floor and crying in pain; as I feel all of my hope beginning to drain;

You were the spark that I held on to so tight; because you were my only guiding light;

 I always held you close on the days you felt bad; would encourage and whispering sweet words to make you feel glad;

I only wanted to make you mine; but you don’t love me nor want to be with me, so I guess I was just wasting my time; You and I just weren't meant to be; You never loved me; reality is cold and harsh; but its time for me to move on;

In the morning I shall be gone.  

LZ; All you'll have left are memories that I once was there. Memories of how much this heart once cared Gone, to you I shall be dead I never was, I've just been a concoction of your head My road lined with tears I've left behind But I'm certain you'll see my worth in time Never beaten, broken or defeated Never hurt, torn apart or depleted I feel new, today is my rebirth You'll be haunted by the realization of my true worth.

NC; Love will be like an oasis in the desert and joy will be like a rubbish of sorrow; the congregation of all churches will be have no minister to follow

Life will be like a lonely telephone pole without a diamond engagement ring of communication.

This world will stink a sewage and funky ass underwear, ugliness will be the pearl of beauty, nature will be painted red with blood, death will live to tell the tales and everything will die.

Never beaten, broken or defeated never hurt, torn apart or depleted I feel new, Today Is my rebirth you’ll be haunted by the realization of my true worth  

LZ; Like a fungus, I’ll ferment your conscious You'll be haunted by my memory, I’ll invade your subconscious Disgusting, you've made me sick With your lies and nature that's so sadistic Disgusting, you make me sick With your lies and your nature that's so sadistic But you'll see me rise tomorrow I'll never be murdered by infectious sorrow Never beaten, broken or defeated Never hurt, torn apart or depleted I feel new, today is my rebirth You'll be haunted by the realization of my true worth.

By: @LitsoaneloZwane  and @Nozee_ 

Blame Game

Is love self-reflective? 

Forbidden unless understood? 

Forgiven but never forgotten? 

If I sit and analyse the situation, will I start to blame myself? 

For every door that didn't open 

For every holiday that you missed 

For the baby we wanted but never conceived 

For the love that wasn't enough or for the apologies never spoken 

If I said I love you today and not tomorrow 

Is it just the desire to want to be loved? 

The need to want to be held 

The security to have someone to come home to 

Or is love something more 

Did I reap my own KARMA? 

Because I don’t want to stay in this any longer? 

Is this a test? To prepare me for the best… 

Will I one day look back and laugh  Cause all this shit is in the past 

What if I didn't nag you at all? 

Stop going to the mall… didn't bother you when you didn't call 

Would I be viewed as passive? 

Would you then believe this relationship would have something lacking? 

What if I pretended to like that little thing you do? 

Always called you baby, honey and boo? 

Would you like me better that way? 

Well I will take the blame 

I'm done playing this game.

@Nozee_ 

One For 

one for mum,she said 

and down her throat

she sent  half a bottle of whiskey 

to comfort the first shot 

that'd been feeling 

quite lonely down there  all by herself 

with only some nuts to keep her company 

one for dad 

she thought 

and noticed that the wine 

turned to blood in her glass 

she sat there mesmerized 

thinking that drinking 

has just made her a vampire 

and that now she'll have to 

suck every bit of life out of the  first human being that comes her way 

one for him 

she remembered 

lying on the bathroom floor 

covered in vague memories 

of a stranger's hands  ripping her shirt open 

while trying to spread-eagle her legs 

with his knees 

i guess i forgot to say please 

she sighed 

and kept watching the turquoise tiles 

dancing around her 

under a bleach white sky 

hey, didn't they all have a ball  it was one hell of a jacuzzi night 

a whole bathtub of champagne 

bubbled its way through her intestines 

and because she was way too ladylike to vomit  in the presence of others  she gently adjusted her smile 

and shat herself 

one for mum 

who was brainwashed by a sect 

one for dad  who thought it best  to drink himself to death 

i raise my glass  to cancer 

oh wait you can't toast a star sign 

let's make it  cigarettes then 

and she got up on all fours 

determined to locate her handbag

@Nozee_